Sunday, March 06, 2005
I've recently taken to considering my future, in the most technical, tangible sense of the word. And I don't mean to add myself to the cliches so abundant when prospects come into debate, but I find myself caught in somewhat of a forked road, with more practical things to my right, and the road less travelled to my left. And as much as I would like to think of myself as the kind of person who disregards what society expects, I find myself conforming(and whether this is against my will or not, I am still not clear about). Perhaps I still remain a cynic before a dreamer, a sceintist before an artist. Where do you draw the line between being realistic and becoming part of the rat race? Between knowing what makes your heart beat faster and what keeps it beating at all?
And in considering all of this, I'm still seeking His direction for me. I ask how much of this is mine and how much of it is His? Every so often, I am reminded of the things that have happened and the reasons why, the promises I have made Him, the joy in the faces of the people I've met who have gone and surrendered completely. My mind is lost amongst all these decisions, but I am fully certain that my heart will always find its rest in Him.
"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whosoever loses his life for me will save it" - Luke 9:23,24
sherry @ 3:38:00 pm
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