Sunday, August 19, 2007
The humdrum
I've been in Berkeley 9 days now, and I still sleep at 4 in the morning, and I still walk around aimless waiting for it to happen - I'm waiting for the
wow to set in, and it is late. I think I haven't quite adjusted to the idea that it is all happening again -having to establish new patterns, new places, new social circles- I think my heart is bitter for this repetition of events, my head is bitter that everything is moving so slowly, I don't know where I stand alongside the two. And it is different, and it is the same, but it is surely almost exhausting for non-people-person people like me. And I know I am so very lucky to get to do this again, and I know that the time will come when I will feel good about this, but it not here yet. I just want to be happy about this choice, about being here, and perhaps that is the hardest thing to want right now.
sherry @ 3:35:00 am
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